How long le... I am still counting... 3 weeks le.. so fast... Haixx.. Last thursday, I got so pek chek, I emailed him tt Felicia wants the CD and i told him I wont email him anymore since he finds me a nuisance.

I dont know is it really that he find me a nuisance or he is really worried that I dont want to email him... the next day he passed the CD and a msg to 3rd mei... " Every thing can be resolved in a more peaceful and matured ways"

How matured is his matured? By running away, by avoiding, by changing of attitude, not letting me know what is exactly the anger in him... and ignoring me?

Then how immatured have i been? Asking him why, emailing to check if he is alright, retrieving the acct tt he had thrown away?

Haix... got very upset... esp. by the toy toy thingy lor... anyway wrote him a 2 pages worth or words. Talking abt the toy, his attitude, my feelings, his wrong assumptions... asked SK to pass to him but today she couldnt find him, so left at his table. Wondering now if he had seen it or read it. Haixx... fear, very fear of everything... i still cant cope with the fact of losing him. Everyday I just couldnt stop thinking norx... everynite i would dream of him... think of him... memories are like VCD, keep playing nonstop at my mind sia... So sad...

Sometimes i wonder would it better if hadnt told me his 2 big secret and admit his liking? Sometimes i think i am too eager to know certain things that lead to my loss. I dont know lar.. Haix... cant i even retain this friendship? Why must god fool me... giving me a beautiful friendship, yet ending it so tormentaneously? Haixx... wO Ha| Sh| hEn a| n|... wU |uN n| Za| nA Li, wO dOu bU Hu| wE| n| mEi wAn xU YuAn, RanG n| GuO dE xinG fU KuAi Le Yi d|aN... zHi yinG wE| wO a| n|... (HeArtbRokE)

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