todaw ... wat can i say... sorrowful day... i tot todae i gonna enjoy b4 i see him tml... how would i noe i would receive such a news? cut my hair... a new look but a more sorrowful life...

todae sk went to him to ask abt the letter... he tried to deny but later admit to it... he noe sk noe abt everithing... he told her alot too... he wun see me.. i noe the outcome tomolo.. he afraid tt he or me wun be able to 4get the other person... he dun wan to mislead... yet he wan frenxship... how silly? he cant even surpass his obstacles... i duno... but since he cant... i decided... i will path another route for him... to make him hate me... i know for everyone that understand this... this is going to be the sadest thing a girl can do... but i gotta do it... for his sake... i noe from the start i cant escape this path...since i cant let him like me... i can onli let him hate me... even to hurting myself... i must let him end his feeling for me.. i was misleaded in the start... i choose to deepen... now i realli felt like a fool... y cant he continue this... y must he do this? I duno why i cried again... i duno why i cried for him again... how many people actually understand how much i love him? for him... i can give up everything.. everything...
there i goes again.. another tear... for him... does he know how much shattered my heart was made... does he know that all the wound in my heart was made by him... does he know that... know how much i have sacrifice? just to maintain a friendship with him...
why must i love him in the first place? y him? y must i love him so deep... why must it be him... my heart ache again...
I duno wat is going to happen tml... i have no idea myself... will he just cycle past me or stop... i duno... i noe i cant sleep anymore... so be it...

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